void

It's Saturday morning and I'm going about my household duties. The sun is shining and it's a beautiful day. I sit here with tears streaming down my face. I'm letting the anxiety take hold again and I'm feeling the void once filled by a friend, confidant and lover. One week ago I was lying in his arms and today I'm separated from him completely. It hurts so much. I'm so afraid that the relationship is going to end -- that he will end it. How do I continue to do this? How do I continue to wait? I need to pray -- nothing more than whispered phrases so far this morning. It's time to get on my knees and submit once more. Last night I prayed for God's peace and he gave it to me. I felt more relaxed and slept a little better.