online dating sucks

At first I was leery of online dating because it felt like I was putting too much of myself out there and I didn't trust the electronic version of a man. I communicated with a couple of guys and either they dumped me or I felt really uncomfortable with them. I settled upon eharmony as the best online dating method because it's not like shopping for a guy -- it's an invisible system of matching that delivers up the matches that are supposedly based on who you are and your personality. Sure. My first experience with eharmony was limited to a close geographical area and the matches were few. They resort to "flexible matching" which is VERY loose in my opinion -- marginally employed and uneducated guys who live with their mothers are NOT a matches for me! So, this time, I widen the net across the U.S.A. -- except some states that I'd rather not step foot in. I was optimistic that some interesting guys, who I could at least correspond with, would be matched with me. After two months and many so-called matches, there has not been one single guy who really grabbed my attention. Either they are physically unattractive, non-spiritual or lacking in intelligence. I see attractive guys all the time -- not drop dead gorgeous, just attractive -- and ALWAYS married. I really thought that somewhere among millions of men there might be an unattached, attractive, Godly, mid-40s guy on eharmony. Ha!! I'm discouraged because the chances of meeting the right guy around here is minuscule and I know many attractive, single, 40+ women who are also looking -- so the competition is stiff!! I look at all these married people and I wonder -- how in the world did they find each other?? Oh wait, I know, they met when they were younger and there was more to choose from! I'm seriously going to be alone for the rest of my life!!! My potential attractive qualities are diminishing every day so it's not going to get any easier. Lord, can you just drop a guy for me out of the sky..... thanks. It's so frustrating that I wasted the best of myself on some idiot like JMR and whatever I have left is bottled up inside because I have no one to give it to. It's just going to dry up and whither away. ughhhh.