musings

The ex is weird and stuck in the same place he has been for years. It's difficult for me to talk to him because I keep thinking -- you are SO messed up. He tells me last night that he and JM are no longer a couple -- they're just roommates. "It's working out better this way." "It was like was like being with my sister -- weird." First of all, I really don't want to know. Second, he's been with this woman for TWO years and he's just figuring out that he doesn't have any chemistry with her?! Wow. I had a feeling all along that he just wanted someone to take care of him and help out with the bills, but geesh. He keeps asking me how everything is with me and I don't tell him anything except what's going on with the kids. I really don't want him knowing anything about my personal life. I like having him out of my life as much as possible.

So I recently faced an awkward social invitation situation where having a partner or date could have been handy. Now I'm wondering if I should except the invitation -- will it be really awkward if I come alone? I also have a feeling that everyone else on the invitation list is at least 20 yrs. older than me!

I actually had a full social calendar last weekend and (gasp!) I may have something lined up for both Fri. and Sat. nights this weekend. Then I'll be with my parents in Rochester, oldest daughter is coming home (yipee!!) and then Thanksgiving weekend with the fam. Life is good.

I might try eharmony free communication weekend again. I'm VERY suspect of getting sucked into a subscription. They generally dangle someone promising in front of you (I seriously wonder if these people get some kind of kick back), the get you to subscribe, the attractive guy pulls out and then all further "matches" are just wrong and it gets frustrating. Oh well, as long as I stick to just browsing I guess I have nothing to loose.