impatient

I'm tired and impatient today. I'm itching to contact you in some way, but resisting with all of my strength. This 'space and time' thing really isn't working for me. I've had about enough of it. I'm frustrated and beginning to get angry. Is this really necessary?

Meanwhile, I continue to pray like crazy and try to focus on waiting on the Lord instead of waiting for you. There is only so much that I can tolerate -- I don't know what the limit is right now, but I'm sure I'll know it when I hit it. If you don't reach out to me with some FEELING soon, you are going to lose me. Maybe that's what you hope for anyway. I just don't know.