loneliness

Typing the word loneliness made me remember a song that I used to listen to when I was a kid. It was on my parents' Bobby Vinton album -- "Mr. Lonely". It's such a depressing song! Loneliness and depression go hand in hand I guess. Jenna is away for the week -- spring vacation with dad. When she isn't around, I have more time to think about myself -- okay pity myself. I keep thinking of all the things I'd like to do and experience, but have no one to share them with. It's nothing new really. I've never had a partner to share my interests. J_ was always doing his own thing. I'd really love to just talk to someone about interesting stuff, but who? I talk to my friend N_ almost everyday and that keeps me from the edge of insanity, but frankly it's not enough. I've been poking around web sites with chats and blogs, but its not very interesting and doesn't meet my need for interaction. I feel like such a loser to be in this position. I feel like I have so much to offer, but I'm in a room with no windows. It's a pity party day I guess! It's such a beautiful day today and I'm so gloomy. Eh, enough of this....