surprise! it's a SCAM

So I finally put it all together yesterday realized I have been the victim of a "romance scam." INSANE! I really had no idea these scams existed, but now I know. The ugly truth has descended on me and now I am grappling with the aftermath of decimated dreams and the plummet of hope. I am so thankful that I have had the Lord to trust through all of this. I made some mistakes and I allowed myself to be lured by something that was too good to be true, but I kept submitting it all to the Lord and continued to seek His guidance and wisdom. He ultimately led me to the truth in a relatively short period of time. I have read of people being wrapped up in the scams for months. Many people have lost thousands of dollars to these scams. The scammers wear you down and then bring you in for the kill. My scammer was not able to get that far though I know an attempt to get money out of me was imminent. Thank God I was enlightened just in time. It is a difficult lesson to learn, but I know I will be stronger for it.

I am feeling some emptiness today -- this fantasy has been filling my days for over two weeks now. The need to be loved emotionally and physically is gnawing at me and I don't know what to do about it. I just need to pray I guess and talk to the Lord about it. My friends have been so supportive and encouraging -- it really helps a lot. I am still in this foggy just woke up phase where I realize that it was all a dream and not real. It may take me a while to shake my head and just move forward with my life as it is and will be. I am glad that I have things to keep me busy for the next couple of days. Tough stuff indeed. It would be tempting for me to think that it just doesn't get better, but I will try to resist. I can see where this was a sign that I need to trust in God more and have deeper, more abiding faith. If I can't quite believe that God has good things ahead for me, I can at least see that He is protecting me and loving me right now -- here in the present.